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meat vs. rice
Monday, 13 September 2010 @ 05:13 | 1 comment(s) | add a comment.
Intake:Breakfast: 1/2 bowl oatmeal (50) Lunch: 1/2 of my rice (100), 3 prawns(20) Dinner: all of my rice (200), 2 tomatoes (20). Total: 390 also, chinese herbal tea = 50? just overshooting, to be safe. Total: 440 Outtake: 11842 steps recorded on my "walk mate" pedometer (on my phone) = 1&1/2 hrs = 250 cals(roughly) situps and crunches = 80 cals yes tommorrow, i have to see the stupid doctors - the ones who force-fed me through the NG, and forbade me to do ANY exercise. but i dont give a damn about the exercise. when/if i feel tired from it, THEN i'll stop exercising. but i am never tired from it; as i have WAY too much energy (read: fat) in my body to be tired from a thing such as exercise. and as i have stated in my last post, i had the courage to go to my friend's house and weigh myself there. as soon as i got on, i was plagued with fears that the number has gone up dramatically, since two weeks ago. well... whaddaya know. it hasnt. it hasn't gone up OR down.... im such a lazybum. in two weeks, i expect to see changes!!! take, a month ago, before i met you lovely readers, i was loosing about 2kg in 3 weeks ... which isn't great, but it was SOMETHING. and now, nothing happened. damn now im too scared to boost my metabolism (as in, eat more food, since i'll know my mum will just say, "oh, if you could eat that, then why didn't you?". it's because i didn't want to, bitch.). BUT my plan of action from tommorow (depending on the results) is to definitely up the strength of the exercises, and try to restrict more - if i can get away with it. Also, i must drink more green tea ... i'm kinda hoping that my plateau in weight has something to do with me not going to the toilet so often...coz one time, i gained like 300g, and i full-on freaked out. i was so scared that the next week, i lost like 1.5kg. THEN those bitches-who-call-themselves-doctors said it might be from the fact that i haven't done number #2's so often ... my reaction? " ..." (i still need to lose MORE weight!) today. i cheated my way to have half of lunch - when the supervisor wasn't looking, i just plopped my lunch back into my schoolbag, where she won't check, instead of my lunchbox. i COULD have gotten away with one, but i wanted to make tommorrow's judgement day a little bit better. and now i really regret it. dinner was so hard. it was either, finish all the meat, or finish the rice. well, in my family, rice is our staple food, and since i HAD to have some rice anyway, i opted to finish the rice. it wasn't THAT much, but i felt disgustingly bloated and fat afterwards - to me, rice is a food that expands within you, where it doesnt feel too bad going down, but afterwards, it feels terrible - and it was too late to go out to rollerblade or skipping rope. eugh. now i have carb overload. im guessing this is also why my weight was so high. at least, my walfare teacher suggested that i have salad for lunch instead of rice :) she's going to make that suggestion to my mum, since my mum doesn't listen to my food choices. i TOLD her (my mum) that i didn't want so much rice, and she complied, but it was only like two spoonfuls ... WTH? i meant like i didn't want half of it, and just give me vegetables. im veggie-deprived. and carb overloaded. anyways, wish me luck, and hope you girls are doing much better than me!! be thin. be ethereal. be waif-like. xoxo. anna~ |
