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i broke a promise to myself.
Friday, 26 November 2010 @ 04:33 | 1 comment(s) | add a comment.
Intake:Breakfast: oats (70) Lunch: one carrot (10), 3 stalks of asparagus (5) Dinner: rice (60), fish (50), today i promised myself that i would not have dinner, in compensation for the week. I had a family meeting with the psychologist, the social worker, and of course, my parents. I hate my parents. They don't get how hard it is to not love myself. My mum thinks that i'm stupid to have body image issues, and that i'm ruining my "smart" reputation by having this ED. I want to be skinny. I want my ribs to show up more. I want a gap between my thighs, I want to achieve straight As. I want many things. So, because i also had to eat coz i have a 5 hour bike ride at the Centennial Park in the City on Sunday, i feel so guilty and anxious. Guilty for giving in, and anxious about how i can't burn it off. I did only eat a little more than half of what my parents gave me, and i skimped out on lunch, so hopefully i can still lose weight. Grrr ... it's 11pm and im sleep deprived. I'm off to bed. Good night, girls, and stay skinny!  this is how i feel. PS: good news that my period has now gone. 3 days. That's refreshingly normal for me :) phew.PPS: i want to starve tommorrow. Oh, and how many cals is cellophane noodles? |
