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another fucking admission
Monday, 13 December 2010 @ 02:20 | 1 comment(s) | add a comment.
so the reason i haven't posted is yes, im in another readmission; Its a never-ending cycle. i hate it i hate it i hate it I've only been in the hospital for 6 days except i feel (and probably have) gained over 10lbs. YUCK. at least im banking on the fact that my thighs havent touched yet. It will only be a matter of time. eww... discharge looks to be so far away, i'd say in another week, but everytime i get leave out of the ward, i seriously want to run away. i've killed several of my fingernails just to feel some sort of pain as a pain release, but i just have to wing it. I post a meal plan (again! - so i can totally feel ashamed for being such a failure.) soon. But now, i'll tell you how it all happened .... 6 days ago It was just another clinic / outpatient doctor's appointment. Both me and my mum finally agreed on something - i had done well in "eating" this past week. Well, my weight was : (drumroll .... ) 86lbs. Yeah. And that was with a 1kg (2.5lbs) weight in my hair. so im not sure how i lost so much this past week, with me eating so much. so according to that, i had to be admitted, and here i am, 6 days later, fatter than ever, bloated, constipated (well, you didnt need to know that), and generally hating myself more than ever. i dont know my weight, but i will on wednesday. Then i'll see how fat ive gotten. I will post this so i can be probably ashamed of myself. I wont be surprised if you all decide to desert me. I am such a failure. I'm sorry. will post soon; xx. you are all better than me. anna. |
