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Friday, 31 December 2010 @ 19:14 | 2 comment(s) | add a comment.
 I've reevalutated my resolutions and they are: 1. Be thin. 2. Eat no more than 500 cals per day. 3. Eat mostly protein, and definitely cut back on carbs (that’s hard coz my fam is carb-based) 4. Eat nothing that has more than one calorie per 0.5gram (ie anything high calorific / calorie-dense). 5. Tone up. 6. Keep behaviour under wraps from ever-so-annoying parents. Being in Australia, i was one of the first to welcome in the new year, and this year i must say the fireworks surpassed itself:     *RANT* i feel ashamed, that i had to welcome in 2011 at 97lbs (ie nearly my highest weight) - it was supposed to be at my normal weight of around 90lbs! My normal weight for me revolves around 90lbs, but these parents of mine just won't accept that. Even at 97lbs they STILL critique me for the fact that im still skinny, which i am NOT - i've only got thin arms, but a massive butt and thighs that spread and touch. I have knee fat too. A lot of knee fat that i need to shift. *end RANT* i feel honoured (yet also slightly undeserving) to be past the 30 followers mark, that i actually have a classful of people reading my rambles. Over the christmas break and into new years, good news on the intake - i have whittled it down to two meals and one snack (instead of 3 standard meals and 3 standard snacks), so for my family, i would hazard a guess at around 700cals that theyd give me. I have the smallest portion of everything, so the meals would be around 300cals each (im eating more white fish, and less carby rice) and my afternoon evil snack which is monitored by my doctor (if i don't eat a snack, then its straight back to hospital-grr) is a third a small bowl of fat-free yogurt (i cant believe my mum buys this! - only 52cals per serving -1/5 of the jar? Seriously? ) topped with 6 frozen raspberries/blueberries that just are lovely when it melts in your mouth (coz its summer, and its sweltering in my non-air conditioned house) . Truly, the bowl is more raspberries/blueberries than yogurt, though it doesnt seem like that to my mum, who serves it to me, so my fruity fix is like 80cals or something. but look what i found on Wikipedia: huh? is that true? Really? I'm never eating a pot of yogurt thats prepackaged again! Yes, its more convenient, but i know those things hold 175g-200g, which is more than what i get now :)
Sarah - thank you for your encouraging comments, but because im only 5'2", 97lbs is alot. Also, im asian, so you'd think that im smaller, but because of the fact that im asian, i have a higher percentage body fat than other people, which is something i desperately want to change. I don't like being asian anymore. It just defines you as : - carb eating rice lover - have a higher percentage body fat - short but not always petite (my cousin is overweight, and no one cares) - supposedly too smart for an ED (this is frequently said by my mum) - for my family = fat thighs. I don't see how my family can look at themselves and accept it. I've always wanted to change my fat thighs, either through lipo or a diet, but until the ED came, i've never actually tried to do anything. I remember looking at myself in year 4 (when i was 10) and thinking 'its good that im tall, but these legs are still as chunky as ever'. I also remember staring and envying those thin toned stomachs of the infomercials where they advertise ab machines. Don't mention it, i'm the weird one in my family - born two and a half premature, i was a miracle baby, and yet i seemed 'normal'. I was a funny baby, never crying, and also never sleeping. Yes. I was an insomniac as a baby. When i hit 5 years old, i began weird habits, like chewing on my nails, and doing these pressups on my table. I haven't been able to stop either of those habits and its been 10 years. My nails have died, but with pressups, i got lovely toned arms. I wish there was one i could do for my legs. Wow, i certainly did not mean to tell my life story (and strange habits that got stranger and more wacky as i get older) in this post, so i bid you all, a happy new year!   |
